just a little something to let you know you're still on my mind.

i can't believe i'm standing here
in the middle of the ICU downtown.
seeing you laying there,
is enough for it to finally get to me & start the breakdown

i'm watching them now,
holding your hand,
and whispering goodbyes in your ear for the last time

how did we get to this?
it was only two weeks ago when we got the news.
how did we get here?
me having to say goodbye to you?

i don't want you to go
please take my hand
i'll hold you here, with us, all night
because i can't stand
for you not to be in my life
after all this time..
i don't want you to go.

you taught me so much,
like how to love.
xxoo


on a semi-lighter note, i'm confused.
moodswings are giving me whiplash.
one minute, angry.
next minute, passive aggressive.
the next minute, super friendly.
and now, being ignored?
i'm not sure. i think things are okay between us?
but then something happens to make me think we're not?
i just don't knowwww.

i'd like it to be how it was before,
but it's hard to change change.